Back in da Groove

Okay, its been a minute, but I'm not completely giving up. Here's to new starts...

Tenacity

Okay, so the scale isn't going down, but the good news is it isn't going up either. I've been maintaining, and overall I'm beginning to feel a lot more healthy. I've stayed true to my water intake and my exercise regime is more consistent than not. I just left the track with my trainer and we did circuit training. A sista is tired, but still invigorated. Here's to one day at a time!

New Beginnings

Okay, I decided not to do the Atkins or Zone thing...I'm going to do this the healthy way. I've stepped up my cardio and am trying to be more honest with myself about my feelings with food. I'm truly releasing all the pain and frustration I've had with myself lately. Today is a brand new day.
Thanks for all of your support!

Trying Something New

Okay, I'm back on the bandwagon, but I'm still extremely disappointed by the creeping scale. Its my TOM so that may have something to do with it, but because of the kind of person I am, I need to see results soon or I'm going to end up letting this thing defeat me. Consequently I've decided to start the induction phase of Atkins tomorrow. My sincere hope is that (1) I can kick start some weight release and (2) I can release some of these cravings that keep affecting me.

As far as the exercise goes, all is well. I've been able to keep this and my water intake as successful new lifestyle habits.

I'll keep you all posted on the progress.

I'm Losing Focus

Okay, I thought I was ok with the scale not moving, but during this last week my eating has gotten progressively worse. Tonite I ate a whole order of Domino's Cinnastix and an order of Chicken Kickers. I even ordered a second order of Kickers in case I wasn't feeling full when I finished. I've disgusted myself. I really don't want to return to my old habits. I just felt soooo out of control today.

I don't want to give up, but there is a really big part of me that wants to just throw in the towel. I mean, hey its easier to eat what I want, avoid exercise, etc. Right? It's like my head knows better, but there's some kind of evil Tiffany inside that is sabotaging this journey.

I'm so stuffed feeling right now, and know I'm so angry with myself, I just don't know what to do. I really don't want these few lbs I've released to come back. Creator please help me now!!!

ok

The scale isn't moving as fast as I would like it to, but hey, I'm gonna keep truckin'

Perspective

You know, I could begin by going on and on about the mistakes I've made lately in my eating choices. This defeatist perspective is one that I've been all too familiar with. Instead, I'm going to concentrate on the things that I'm doing right and the things that are becoming more and more a true part of a lifestyle change. I'll begin with the water intake. I have consistently been successful in this facet of my weight release program. In the last three weeks, I've only had one unsweet tea, everything else has been WATER! And guess what? It hasn't been that difficult; it truly feels like this is becoming a healthy habit and I'm very happy about that.

Secondly, I have been consistent with my exercise. On days I don't meet with my trainer I still make sure to get some cardio and/or weight training done. Every night I do my squats and ab work.

This is much more than about my weight. This is about treating myself the way I want (and deserve) for others to treat me. I'm starting to really like and appreciate myself. I think this is the key I've been seeking for a long time.

Minor Set Back

Okay, I've had another minor set back in my eating, but I'm determined to not let that stop my forward movement with my exercise. This is truly a day-by-day struggle and I'm working hard to accomplish some emotional/mental issues that lead me to pack on pounds as insulation from too much attention. Isn't that a trip? I mean, I want attention, but I know there is a part of me that feels safer when I go unnoticed. (And we all know how unnoticed fat people tend to be in this image-conscious society that is South Florida).

Taking it one day at a time....

Woo-hoo

Seven pounds and more than a few inches down....more to go!

Minor Set Back

Okay, my eating this weekend was off the chain! However, I did try to improve with minor choices on my otherwise bad day. I went to Mickey D's, but instead of ordering my usual 10 pc nugget combo w/ a coke, I did the grilled chicken combo w/water. I still ate the fries :-( (and paid for that dearly later that evening) lol.

Unlike in the past where a bad weekend like this would ruin my whole new lifestyle, I'm determined that a bad day, is just that--a day. Today is a new one and my choices will make up for any shortcomings I may have had.

Thanks for all of the support everyone is offering, it really means a lot!

Growing...

I did a mile this morning. I feel really good. I can't believe that I am beginning to like exercise!!! I am so blessed to have the use of my limbs. I did make it to the gym the other day and worked upper body to avoid hurting my knee any more.

I had an epiphany the other evening. I have been looking for a good man to treat me well. Well, quite honestly, I have not treated my own body the way I expect someone to treat me. Its time for me to love me. This includes feeding my body healthy, whole foods and giving it the sunshine and exercise it deserves.

On a side note: I discovered the meatless whopper!!! Why oh why did I have to do that? Who would've thunk it?! A meatless whopper tastes just like a regular whopper and is essentially a vegetarian choice! The bad news: now I'm hooked on them...Doh!

Injury!

I already had a bit of a bum knee and Saturday working out without my trainer, I think I over did it. My knee is killin' me! It even hurts to the touch. That's the bad news....The good news is: I'M STILL DETERMINED TO WORK OUT TODAY. I don't care if I have to drag this leg in behind me, I'm meeting my trainer today. I'll get this knee checked out tomorrow if it still hurts, but I am determined not to let this stop my forward movement.

I remember hearing a commencement address that said those who graduate have no more intelligence than those that do not; the only difference is that they possess greater tenacity to follow through on their academic journeys. That's how I'm viewing this knee thing. I won't let this be an excuse for me to slip back into complacency. I'm ready to go all the way!

Here's to loving us the way we're supposed to,
dasweetstcypha

Results!

Okay, I've released a total of five pounds since Sunday. I'm so crunk! It may seem like only a little but I need this kind of motivation.

I've been working with a personal trainer. She's trying to kill me ya'll! LOL. But really, I do need her. I mean, I've joined the gym before but never followed through on it. She helps to hold me accountable and somehow her laughing at my expense is also pretty motivational. She's provided me with a very do-able eating plan that I've been able to stick to. Luckily being able to see these five pounds release from my frame is helping stay this course.

I wish you and me success!

Okay Here it Goes

I've tried before to tackle these extra pounds that have been following me around for the last five or so years. Yesterday, I actually took a REAL first, realistic step towards that goal. I weigh in at 253.4 lbs, definitely not my heaviest, but far too heavy for my 5'2" frame. (Wow did I just admit that online???!) So, my long-term goal is to get down to at least 165. My short-term goal is to lose one dress size (from sz 24) by Thanksgiving. I could really use some support from others that understand this journey towards total healing.

Wish me success,
dasweetstcypha