Stalemate

So this week I didn't lose anything. Not a single pound. I could sit and pout and give up on getting healthier. But I WON'T quit. I will continue to push and journey forward. I will make even better choices and I will up my calorie intake to boost my metabolism. My trainer is convinced that I haven't been eating enough to rev it up as I should.

On another note, I found a tasty, healthy fast-food entree. Panda Express has an entree called mushroom chicken. It has chicken, mushrooms, and zucchini cut up in it. It tastes very good, has veggies, and is only 250 calories!!! YAY! I'm going to be doing a lot better and my goal weight is in sight.

Hello Sexy, I'm on my way! LOL

great workout

Today I had a really good (and painful) work out with the trainer. I am committing myself to pushing myself on the days I work out alone at least as much as the trainer pushes me.

I had some sweet tea this week and my face is already suffering from it. I guess my skin is communicating that it prefers the water only approach. So I'm listening and doing better.

thankful

At least three people told me that they could see a difference...that I looked good. That made me feel really well.

Still pushin,
dasweetstcypha

Tonite's Epiphany

Tonite's workout felt extra good and now I'm extra sore LOL. While I was struggling through the reps (my trainer was killin' a sista), I began to think about how good it would feel to finally see myself again. I've been hiding myself under all this extra weight for years because I have been afraid about revealing myself to the rest of the world. Thank God that I am beginning to understand that I don't have to do that anymore. The extra weight has cost me so much and I'm sick of paying. I'm ready to be the best me...to be all of me.

Other than that, I saw that Haiti had an earthquake (7) today. The little problems I have are nothing compared to the tragedies that a lot of other people must face. It's time that I stop feeling sorry for myself and begin to count my blessings. There are enough of them that I should be pretty busy. Thank God for that!

Steady....

I'm emotionally unwell. I am still hurting and its been almost two months. I do not know when my heart will heal (or if it ever will). I am feeling so drained and so unworthy. Honestly, I don't know if I even really like myself all that much right now. It seems like I keep making mistakes and I continue to be punished for them. Although part of me just wants to give up on everything, I have decided that I am too good for that.

I can do this for myself. I can continue to work on me. Heck, maybe that's what this is all about--learning to put me first. I'm still making better (though not perfect) choices. I am still moving forward. I'm another pound closer to my goal. I've been working out consistently.

Even if no one else cares, I do.

Despite it all....

I really haven't been feeling well today. My stomach wouldn't keep down most of what I ate today and for some reason I've been suffering from bloating and pressure in my belly. Despite it all, I still worked out. I didn't feel any worse after I jogged on the treadmill so I don't regret suffering through it. I want to really stick to my lifestyle changes. So, even though my bum knee is acting up and my tummy hurting, I still did what was best for me. That's what choosing health is all about :-)

I'm happy

being me.

Fear

I am continuing to choose health. I did almost 200 crunches yesterday and a slew of squats. My legs and belly are on fire today LOL. But that's a good thing. I am determined to shed all fear about how I look. I've been afraid to shed weight because part of me felt insecure about the potential attention I would attract. But I'm over that fear. I'm okay being attractive. It doesn't matter if I attract attention, I get to choose whose attention I respond to.

Here's to getting my sexy back....

I Choose

After thinking (and praying) about my stress levels, I realized that by worrying about them I was multiplying my anxiety all by myself. I have decided to stop giving strength to my stress by simply choosing not to be stressed. If I can be faithful about other things in my life I certainly can have faith about being at peace.

You know what? It's working! Every time I feel the tightness and pain in my heart begin, I simply stop, breathe deeply, and remember that He that loves me is in control and Spirit takes care of the rest. My fears and doubts only make it easier for worries to creep in. If I simply speak aloud that my life has no room for fear and doubt I begin to feel better.

And so the healthy choices continue....

Thanking Spirit for Peace,
dasweetstcypha

Cortisol....

So, I've heard that stress can cause our bodies to produce too much cortisol which typically causes belly fat to develop. Okay, so I've been really stressed for about a month now. I have tried everything--working out, prayer, meditation, etc. It seems like I can't get it together. I feel tense about 90 percent of the day. Sleep is elusive and I rarely get more than five and a half hours a day. This is causing my weight loss to plateau. I'm starting to get frustrated...what am I going to do???? Ugh!!!!!

New Year

I'm still making healthier choices. I'm still exercising. I'm loving me.