Yay

The hotel has a gym so I'm still getting in my daily workouts. Physically I feel good. Emotionally I am completely spent...when does the pain of a broken heart heal?

sigh....

Still Pushin'

I've still been going hard on this lifestyle change. I mean to make it last this time. The problem is that my weight loss has slowed down because I'm not taking in enough calories. I think part of the problem is that I'm afraid to eat. I can't figure out how to eat more calories without increasing fat and carb intake. I've got to figure this thing out. But I'm going to make it happen. I love me enough to do my best.

A New Me

Yesterday I bought a cute wrap sweater dress that hugs my hips, accentuates my waist and hides my rolls. I look pretty sexy in it if I must say so myself. It feels good to like the way I look again. That's just a little extra motivation.

The clean eating and daily workouts are really making a difference in not just how I look, but how I feel mentally, physically, and spiritually. My skin is clearing up, and so are my thoughts. I love me!

Still...

I'm still working on me. I'm growing in a lot of ways. I'm learning to truly exercise faith and to commit myself to me. This feels good.

Unfamiliar Eyes

I got a chance to see an ex of mine this weekend. He hasn't seen me in over a year. Though I had told him about my weight loss, he was completely surprised when he saw me. It felt good for him to tell me that he could see a difference. It felt good for him to tell me that he always appreciated my beauty and that I was still beautiful. It felt good for him to hold my waist and spin me around....but it wasn't enough. It didn't go any farther than that b/c this body, this heart, and this soul still belong to my man.

victory

Right now I'm on the road. I used to use the excuse that I was on vacay to eat whatever I want. This time, I only ate yogurt in the airport and as soon as I landed I went to Publix and got fresh fruit and cereal to keep in my hotel room. I am determined to make healthy choices all of the time--no more excuses!!!

Still moving

I'm still moving forward. Thank God for discipline and dedication.

Still pushing....

For the past 2 weeks, I have worked out consistently...I have made healthy life choices consistently....I am finished with my Inferential Stats class...I am still hurting, but learning to accept that God is control....Is this what growth feels like?

Clean Eating

I have eaten clean for the past 9 or so days. I can't describe how good it feels to be making the right choices. I'm 7 more lbs down and I'm really seeing a difference in myself. I HAVE COLLAR BONES AGAIN!!! LMAO; It's amazing how the little things matter.

Beyond the aesthetic purposes, I really want to take charge of my total person. I have always taken good care of other people, but I have mistakenly always made them the priority. I cook things I think they want to eat, I dress the way I think they want to see me, I tailor my hair to what they think is cute (although I will never straighten it again). Soooo, me making these healthy choices has been easy as long as I have decided to take as good of care of myself as I do of other folks.

Because I'm currently alone (romantically)--though I'm praying things work out--I have had to understand that being alone does not necessarily equate with loneliness. After all, if I spend time preparing and cooking my meals, being more active, and working out regularly, I really don't have time to dwell on the reality of my love life.

Healthy eating and living has become the world's best anti-depressant....Who'd a thunk it?!

Abs Sore

The thing about spending extra time on abs in the gym is that I can't tell if the soreness in my belly is from my heartbreak or from 200 crunches....Is that a good thing?

wow

I lost 6 lbs last week and actually RAN on the treadmill yesterday....Yay Me!

I Am Sacred

I believe in myself....

I think I can....I know I can....I'm sure I can break these chains.

And hallelujah it has been an entire week with healthy eating choices. Only water and herbal teas to drink. The only sweets I have had are fresh fruits...My heart is hurting from a recent hardship in my relationship but I will not allow that or anything else to keep me from saving myself.

I deserve to be healthy, I deserve to be healed, I deserve to grow, I deserve the best of everything including what I choose to put in my body. It's wonderful that as my eating habits have changed, so too have my television habits (it hasn't been on since Wednesday except to watch a comedy a sista-friend loaned me to cheer me up).

I am working this body that the Creator gave me so that I can earn all of the blessings it and my ancestors have chosen to give me.

In strength and Victory,
dasweetstcypha

ReMotivated

I'm doing what I should have done a long time ago. I just wish isn't too late to save the best thing that ever happened to me.