slowly but surely

I've started doing at least 50 squats and 100 crunches before bed. I haven't gotten back to my cardio yet, but baby steps...baby steps.

Okay

I'm starting over...for real this time :-)

Learning to take care of me

Okay,

I've discovered that one of my major obstacles is lack of preparation. If I allow myself to get too hungry while I'm out of the house, its EXTREMELY difficult for me to avoid fast food stops. So this morning before I left the house I prepared some jerk veggies, packed up some leftover brown rice and plaintain and will have that on hand if I get hungry. I'm also taking some Kashi crunch bars in case the sweet and crunchy monster attacks.

I read somewhere that women always pack bags so that their babies are well taken care of when they're out and about, but seldom do we take the time to do that for ourselves. So now that I have a rolling briefcase (grad student books and woes)I can take more along with me. So today I have: 2 bottles of h2o, a kashi bar, my rice and veggie mixture, and some raw unsalted almonds. Wish me well!

In Peace & Victory,
Me

Warning..TMI ahead lol

Okay,

I didn't stick to 100% vegan, but my eating has improved. Most of the bumps have cleared up and I have more energy. I danced for a few hours Saturday and now my calves hurt...I don't think I've ever had sore calf-muscles! Especially since I wasn't doing too much of anything, just slow meditative movements. TV has basicly disappeared. I probably spent less than 5 hours this entire week on it. Yea for me! Still trying to get over the heartbreak, but hey, I can do this!

TMI: My BMs have been full and satisfying lol. When I eliminate, I feel totally cleaned out afterwards. Here's to roughage :-)

Detoxer's Crisis

Okay, yesterday went pretty well for the most part. I was able to adhere to my eating regime. The liver flush tastes AWFUL!!! But I did it. Last night the "crisis" started as the headaches began, this morning my face is full of little red bumps. Why does cleansing have to put you through all of these changes?! I allowed myself some eggs and soy cheese (I made a veggie fritatta with spinach, artichokes, mushrooms, red and green peppers, & onions--all organic). Ordinarily that would have sent me into a tailspin since I'd already broken the "vegan" part of the detox. However, I'm not beating myself up about it. Hey...if cheating means a veggie omelet instead of Micky D's I'm considering that a small victory. :-)

Detox and Veggie Eating

Okay,

This morning I began a 28 day detox and eating plan. It consists of a liver flush in the am. Fresh fruits and fresh fruit juices until 10am. From 10am-4pm raw or slightly steamed veggies. I can have almonds or any fruits and veggies as snacks. After 4pm its back to only fruits/juices.

I'm also taking some herbal supplements during this time. I'm journeying towards health and well being one step at a time. I will use this time to re-adjust my lifestyle (yesterday I didn't even turn on the tv which is a big step for me!). I'm aiming for less toxic relationships, habits, foods, etc in my life.

I'll be documenting my journey here and will take pics that I hope to post so you can see my results at the end.

In peace and perfection,
Me.

Yesterday's Post

You know what, I realized that the picture I posted in the blog yesterday also indicated some of my issues. I chose to show the pic of Orville and I because I think it helped me "prove" that someone attractive had been interested in me. I still didn't show my whole body. So here's the pic that should have been included.

As you can see, I've gained back much of the weight I'd lost with my PT; I'm going to work on fixing the inside while I improve the outside so maybe this time it'll be true release and not just loss.

Peace.