Motivation

I have the general idea of what my body will look like. It's still thick, muscular legs, small waist, hippy and busty. It's my general shape now--only improved (smile). Now that I have the blueprint in mind there are several things I need to do: 1. Visualize this body often (at least twice a day) 2. Eat the way this body needs to be fueled 3. Sculpt this shape from what I already have through exercise and clean eating It's perfectly do-able. And I WILL do it. Peace, Love, & Light.

Miss Me? Ain't no harm in starting over.

It's been quite awhile since I posted in this blog. As you might imagine, my weight loss (not release since it wasn't permanent) slowed, stopped, and then has actually reversed. Yikes! I could spend a lot of time lamenting the problems and complaining to you about the many issues that kept me from my goal. But what would that serve? Nothing. A few days ago, a romantic interest complained that I had been trying to lose weight for as long as he's known me. And as soon as he said it, I became disappointed in myself. But after thinking about it, I realize that I have nothing to be ashamed of. Yes, I have had setbacks, but I have not allowed them to stop me from trying as many times as it takes for me to be successful. My life is not about the mistakes or the failures, but about the many lessons I learn as a result of them. I choose to meditate on my own growth. I now what it feels like to to become discouraged, but I have NEVER let that keep me from trying. There is no shame in that...only growth.

Today, I had a nice home cooked meal.....Well, maybe not so nice. Today was my first day making scallops. I'm not sure I cooked them correctly. The looked yummy and tasted kinda okay but the texture left much to be desired. I'll give them one more try before I give up for good. But for now, it's back to the drawing board. I'll spend tonight doing some food planning for the week, refrigerator organization, and planning for a successful day tomorrow. I wish you love and light and the same for me, tdp

Changing Tastes

Usually I crave sweets; so the other day in the grocery store, I picked up a 4-ct package of strawberry muffins without hesitation. However, when I got home and actually looked at the calorie count (400 per muffin!) I was disappointed in my choice. That's a third of what I'm trying to take in right now! I can't afford to eat these mamma jammas!!! I put them on the counter and tried to figure out who to give them to. But that's when the snowball effect started.

The very next day, just as I was contemplating what to eat for lunch---(let me interject that I was already hungry which is when I tend to make unhealthy choices)---I got a phone call to rush to meet someone on the other side of town. I didn't have time to make a salad or sandwich and I was WAY too hungry to wait. So I grabbed a muffin with the intention of eating it on the way. After about two or three bites, I just couldn't take it any more. It tasted so artificially sweet that my body didn't even want it. (Yay for small victories).

I learned two things: (1) my taste buds can be trained to serve my higher Self and (2) I must learn to plan my eating more carefully.

Now I just gotta figure out what to do with the rest of these muffins. I hate wasting money!

Eating Habits

I am still struggling to create some healthy eating habits. I made pretty good choices during the first portion of the day: Protein Shake and supplements for Breakfast, Water, Coffee, and then 1/2 sandwich and salad (w/no creamy dressing--yay!) for lunch.................

But then....a 400 calorie strawberry muffin for dinner. Of course, this wasn't enough to hold me until tomorrow so I just finished bbq chicken, spinach, and sweet potatoes at 9:40 at night. WTH??? Not only am I sure to feel uncomfortable going to bed on a full tummy, it doesn't make sense for me to have done this.

However, I do realize now that if I'd simply eaten the same meal earlier in the afternoon instead of the muffin the choices themselves were not that bad. I won't beat myself up because slow and steady wins the race.

Still Learning,
tdp

Long time no see.....

Total, I'm about 30 lbs up from my lowest weight during my first weight release struggle. I've been back on the grind now for about a month. I'm taking an amino acid and protein supplements. I'm lifting and I've incorporated the C25K program in for cardio. Today was day one of that program.

No excuses.....I truly do feel better after a workout so I'm in it again. I've ordered some new workout clothes so I feel sexier going to the gym and I'm determined to fake it until I make it (smile).

Back to it

Okay, I took the last few days "off". I'm not proud of it, but hey I'm human. My ankle was so sore I was forced to wear a brace and with a couple of stressful deadlines, I just wasn't cooking fresh foods. I'm not going to dwell on that. I will, however, celebrate the fact that I'm back on track.

My ankle is still a little sore so I didn't want to jump directly back into HIIT or Jillian's 30 day shred so instead my day looked like this: Tomorrow, I will try to start my day as I did today and then do either the HIIT or 30 day shred in the evening. We'll see how it goes.

AM: 1 mile WATP
PM: 2 mile WATP and 100 basic crunches

Loving Me!

Worried

I've been worried about something the last few days. I couldn't sleep well because I kept having nightmares about it. Sigh, I could've stayed in bed and continued to worry, but instead I just went ahead and got up and did the Biggest Loser Last Chance Workout DVD. I sure hope some endorphins kick in so I can relax a bit.

Le Sigh.