Miss Me? Ain't no harm in starting over.

It's been quite awhile since I posted in this blog. As you might imagine, my weight loss (not release since it wasn't permanent) slowed, stopped, and then has actually reversed. Yikes! I could spend a lot of time lamenting the problems and complaining to you about the many issues that kept me from my goal. But what would that serve? Nothing. A few days ago, a romantic interest complained that I had been trying to lose weight for as long as he's known me. And as soon as he said it, I became disappointed in myself. But after thinking about it, I realize that I have nothing to be ashamed of. Yes, I have had setbacks, but I have not allowed them to stop me from trying as many times as it takes for me to be successful. My life is not about the mistakes or the failures, but about the many lessons I learn as a result of them. I choose to meditate on my own growth. I now what it feels like to to become discouraged, but I have NEVER let that keep me from trying. There is no shame in that...only growth.

Today, I had a nice home cooked meal.....Well, maybe not so nice. Today was my first day making scallops. I'm not sure I cooked them correctly. The looked yummy and tasted kinda okay but the texture left much to be desired. I'll give them one more try before I give up for good. But for now, it's back to the drawing board. I'll spend tonight doing some food planning for the week, refrigerator organization, and planning for a successful day tomorrow. I wish you love and light and the same for me, tdp

Its Been a Long Time!

It's been a really long time since I've taken my health into my own hands (and even longer since I've written about it). Well, times are a-changin'. For the last several days I have consistently worked out and made good, conscious eating choices.

Today I am committing to journaling about my continued effort at a healthy lifestyle. I will record my feelings about weight loss and my progress on this blog on a more consistent basis. So far, since my lap band surgery I have lost 60lbs. Unfortunately because I was not as active as I should have been I have wings! But I'm not going to beat myself up about it. I'm simply going to try to attack them by lowering my BMI and increasing my muscle mass.

I will be monitoring my progress here and on sparkpeople.com (which is a super tool).

I'm in a really good place and wishing the same for you.

Perspective

You know, I could begin by going on and on about the mistakes I've made lately in my eating choices. This defeatist perspective is one that I've been all too familiar with. Instead, I'm going to concentrate on the things that I'm doing right and the things that are becoming more and more a true part of a lifestyle change. I'll begin with the water intake. I have consistently been successful in this facet of my weight release program. In the last three weeks, I've only had one unsweet tea, everything else has been WATER! And guess what? It hasn't been that difficult; it truly feels like this is becoming a healthy habit and I'm very happy about that.

Secondly, I have been consistent with my exercise. On days I don't meet with my trainer I still make sure to get some cardio and/or weight training done. Every night I do my squats and ab work.

This is much more than about my weight. This is about treating myself the way I want (and deserve) for others to treat me. I'm starting to really like and appreciate myself. I think this is the key I've been seeking for a long time.